Imagine all you could see if you just let yourself like me...

Things change a lot. Things I was happy about have changed, and things I needed to change might be doing just that. Am I happy with everything? Not quite yet. My current status with no job, giving plasma, girls, friends, music, living situations, my personal lack of skills, apathy, spirituality, location etc etc are all key factors in the way I've been feeling about life. And looking at my list of selfish gripes, most aren't even out of my control or are very likely to change soon. I can try to say that I have done things to change, but I have given up on that more or less than everything else in my life to date. It may sound like a rant (like whatever else I put on here), and my mind is all tangled from a miserable 3+ hour drive and lack of food and sleep in 48 hours, but what I need is friends. If you care to read this, you probably talk to me at least a couple times a week, just seek me out. Cheer me up. I don't appreciate anything enough.

I really am excited for the future...